Sozzals
Hi Folks, today I’m joined by Chris aka ZahurCC aka Elvamaine. Chris is from the end of the Rift era of pyran. Thanks for joining me today Chris. Tell us a bit about how you fell into Pyran.

ZahurCC
Hi Soz, well it was during playing rift for while that Dave pretty much said to me about moving servers, he hated the side we was on (it was the holy rightous prick side) and had heard that the guys he had been playing with towards the end of warhammer online (im still sad about that games ending) was playing and that we could join them, turned out it was you guys
tbh dave coming up to me and saying “lets join a different server” was something ive heard alot in my gaming life….

Sozzals
So you know Dave from way back. Tell us, for those of you who don’t know you that well, a bit about growing up in south east England?

ZahurCC
yeah me and Dave have been friends since secondary school and have played games together for ages, as for living in the south east well i live just outside three run down sea-side towns Margate, Ramsgate and Broadstairs and this area is known as a job “black spot” theres nothing to do here unless you like penny arcades and beachs…. there is some nice countryside tho

Sozzals
Sounds like a nice place to visit on holiday though! Guessing small town wasn’t a great place for a young gay male to grow up though? Did you suffer a lot of bullying?

ZahurCC
i was kinda bullied at school but not through being gay, i didn’t dare tell anyone about that till way after school ended, i was way too scared of what would happen! no being one of the “nerds” and also suffering from headaches at school did make me a slightly easy target sadly but it could of been so much worse, i heard one of the guys at school say to our R.E. teacher that gay people should be shot because of what they “do” to each other, also at school everything that was broken or didn’t work right was “gay” so yeah sod telling anyone that stuff in that enviroment , as for the area yeah its a problem, theres not alot of gay places to go round here so im pretty out of touch with alot of likeminded people sadly.
oh and sex ed really didn’t cover gay sex at all, so i had to learn myself, some good ways and errrr some bad… yeah some regrets

Sozzals
What was it like “coming out” for you?

ZahurCC
ugh its such a vomit inducing experience u never know how people are gonna react, my dad was ok with it, my mum thought it was just a phase….. thats been a very long phase now lol, Dave reaction was, “oh i thought u just didnt like girls…” one of my friends went really strange on me, he started to ask if i liked celine dion or if i left the toilet sit up or down… he pretty much blanked me after that, but then i did tell him i fancied him at the same time so im not exactly blameless. even now i have to admit unless asked or people assume differently i wont really bring it up, it really shouldn’t matter anymore.
oh and ive never spoken to my older brother about it tho if he can’t tell from the naked men on my walls and desktop wallpaper then he’ll never know

Sozzals
Haha that’s not even mentioning the dildos! Talk to us a little bit about how you got into gaming. What games started you off down the path to being a lifelong gamer? What have you played over the years? What are you playing these days?

ZahurCC
my first memories of gaming is playing point and clicks like Day of the Tentacle and Indiana jones and the fate of atlantis with my brother on the very basic pc we had and ufo: enemy unknown on amiga, it ran so slowly! we even played amstrad games lol after that i had a megadrive and played loads of sonic, wonderboy games, truxton and other smups and streets of rage and golden axe (classics!) after that i went to playstation while my bro has gamecube and N64 so there was always tons of games to play! now tho its mainly PC tho i have a 3DS to play quite a few non PC games PS4 and XBOX One dont interest me but my bro has Switch and i hope to get one too at some point Nintendo games do have alot of nostalgia and are pretty good at making fun games
game types i play these days are mainly mmos and management/creative games or turn based games like xcom (new xcom can never beat old in my mind)
waiting on monster hunter world, the battletech game when its a bit cheaper and a few others currently playing GW2 (with a love hate relationship), minecraft with the gay discord and FF14
oh yeah and me and bro are now and then playing the division
oh and my dildos are well hidden thank you…

Sozzals
πŸ˜€ Other than gaming, what else do you like to do to relax?

ZahurCC
thats been the trouble for me im really bad at relaxing lol, but i do enjoy puzzles and find that calming also ive gotten into gardening alot lately not sure what started that but its been good, been going to an allotment as part of a mental health group every friday and its been great really enjoy it
its even bled into the games i like like stardew valley theres something so peaceful about running your own farm in a quiet little town its nice, if farming irl was like that id be a farmer def

Sozzals
I’m pretty sure real life farming is a lot of sweat and hard work! Can we talk a bit about your headaches? How long have you had them for? What do they feel like? Are they constant or do they come and go? What triggers them? What treatment are you getting?

ZahurCC
ah the dreaded headaches….. i believe they started at secondary school around mid way through, lasted like 6-7 years till i was hit by a car at 18, then they strangely vanished but returned after i had a very rough finish to my uni course and have been plaguing me for like 10 years now, they are constant pressure in the head that does not stop, are like a minor-medium headache but have triggers to make them worse, like migraine worse, films and certain games can make them raise so can stressful situations or massive mood changes for me, treatment for them has been….. bloody terrible, so far ive found nothing thats made them better sadly atm im having therapy as it is believed they are anxiety headaches mainly and im hoping i can get refered to a pain clinic to help me with the pain
also yeah i know farming irl is lot of hard work but tbh imagine if you could just hire a bunch of hot guys working the fields in just dungarees, would that be like the best? πŸ™‚

Sozzals
Haha i can actually imagine you running such a place… I only dread to think what the interviews would involve >_<!

ZahurCC
hahaha probably a theory test on how to grow and handle crops then im thinking of a full hands-on physical test πŸ™‚
could get some nice charity calenders out of that

Sozzals
Hey I really hope you get sorted with some treatment. In the interim, I highly recommend cannabis for all your pain-related needs! :420: Let’s talk a bit about how you stumbled upon Pyran, what you remember from the early days and why you stuck around with us crazies all this time.

ZahurCC
i will admit the memories of the first few days are pretty hazy, tho i do remember a conga line in rift at some point and cowbie getting paid ingame to basically have cyber sex chat with a random person, considering how pvp you guys are i am slightly surprised i have stayed around considering im a pve carebear but i feel its the amazing conversations and funny crazyness that has kept me here and its hard for me to feel like i belong anywhere but i definately feel like i belong here

Sozzals
Well I’m glad you stuck around. I know you watch a lot of streams as well. Have you got a favorite streamer or any particular streams you tune into regularly?

ZahurCC
yes definately my favorite streamers are Proton Jon and his future wife Lucahjins, jons streams decend into chaos and lucah feels like a female american version of me so its very easy to relate also i do tend to watch Smight who has a gameshow on sundays and is a real good player and also plays some real bad games at times i sometimes watch Cryaotic’s late night stream vods and watch TB’s 2 hour podcast (not sure how long thats gonna last with TB’s cancer pretty much in a terminal state now) id love to be able to watch the completionist do streams as i find him to be really attractive and super sweet but i dont get into some of the games he plays πŸ™ i dont find his stuff appealing to watch sadly
oh yeah i almost forgot i watch quite a few of the yogscast streams as well, OTTD and xcom streams are quite a laugh

Sozzals
Have you ever considered streaming, yourself?

ZahurCC
Haha no, 1. I’m not funny/interesting enough and 2. I’ve heard myself on streams I sound like a camp 7 year old so nah not feeling it
I feel to make a good stream you either need to be really good, really bad or funny. My playstyle is to be amazing average in everything, if i get that im happy usually, thats not fun to watch i feel.

Sozzals
Haha fair enough. We actually have a couple of people who stream pretty regularly in Pyran too. Khazgore (Shuya) being one of the main ones – although German streamer hehe. Do you watch much TV? Series and films and shit?

ZahurCC
Not really movies tend to make me worse atm so I kinda avoid them and I only really catch like daytime TV at best

SozzalsΒ 
Like Jeremy Kyle? πŸ˜€

ZahurCC
Fuck no!!!! My mum watchs that and I hate it reminds me too much of most of my local area, I’m sure most of them have been on it

Sozzals
I’ve asked a lot of the other interviewees the bucket list question – what’s the top 5 on yours?

ZahurCC
1. Get a nice cuddly bear and make sure he gives me nice cuddles daily
The guy type just so you know
2. Hmmm travel maybe? This planets pretty beautiful I’m sure theres some places left that remain unspoiled
3. Get more comfortable with myself and my sexuality, I’m so isolated that I’m not as used to gay stuff as I’d like
4. Shake off the the shackles that is my headaches and have some kind of normality
5. Learn to drive a convertible or motorcycle
Hate normal cars

Sozzals
omg are you going to be a gay biker? i’m so hyped for that

ZahurCC
Haha I saw some at pride, full in leather and with gimp masks they had some nice bikes
Not as good of a display s the swimmers on each others shoulders while wearing Speedos but that’s hard to top
Bikers do have a nice appeal to the, wearing leathers whenever you want, sitting a big throbbing powerful machine I mean what’s not to like?

Sozzals
Leather is super sweaty though. I dunno, I’ve never been a fan of the whole leather/pvc look myself. I’m more into pretty frills and petticoats and corsets. Tell us about what kind of guy you’d typically go for then.

ZahurCC
I tend to have 2 main types, either cute young twink types or cute big hairy manly bear types
I was sad at pride that they ran out of bear flags I really wanted one

Not sure if u know it, it’s striped like the rainbow one but it’s white,gray,black and browns with a Bear paw print
So wanted one
Ermmm I love blonds but don’t mind other colours even gingers

Sozzals
EVEN GINGERS are in with a chance, folks!

ZahurCC
I don’t understand the hate on gingers
It’s a nice colour, i mean i thought the guy that played ron in harry potter turned out pretty hot so you know
As I said earlier I really like jirard (the completionist) so he’s a good idea on what type of bear I like
I feel like any type similar to the twink type would just be a porn star lol. though thinking about it tom fletcher from mcfly would most likely fit the bill
I feel like this is why I play blood elves or tauren/pandas in wow
Orcs are nice but I like a bit of fur on my guys

Sozzals
Me too actually. I’ve really started to appreciate a good hairy chest in my later years. It’s so nice to snuggle into!

ZahurCC
Awww I’m jealous I need to find one stat

Sozzals
I have to ask the obligatory – “what colour is your underwear right now” question!?

ZahurCC
What’s underwear?

Sozzals
That’s the correct answer!

ZahurCC
Haha

Sozzals
If you had to pick one person in Pyran to be trapped on a dessert island with. Who would it be and why?

ZahurCC
Ummmm not sure I feel like it should be either someone relaxing or someone practical to get off it
Tbh I think i’d actually be able to relax on a dessert island!
I feel like theory would be the person to help get you off the island

Sozzals
You trust him because he’s a man of science?

ZahurCC
And he’s really good on efficiency
If I wanted to just relax and chill probably you or Jim hes definitely one of the chillest person that I’ve ever known he’s pretty calming

He managed the raids didn’t he?

Sozzals
Probably better taking Jim. He’s the most likely to put out.
Who’s got your favourite accent/voice on pyran voicechat?

ZahurCC
Ooooo well I love Irish and Welsh accents so I’ll leave that to you who’s got that

Sozzals
Kev!! πŸ˜€ I knew it! he’s actually out campaigning for abortion rights for irish women this week, what a champion of the people!
I haven’t interviewed many Brits – let us know – What’s your opinion on Brexit?

ZahurCC
I’m on and off about it personally I like the idea of running stuff ourselves but I dont exactly agree with the closed borders stuff but it’s going now so I’m not surprised everythings a bit up in arms people hate change, it scares them but things never change if u don risk doing anything so let’s just see how it goes
I’m mildly optimistic that things will get better eventually but they need to get a move on

Sozzals
Here’s hoping. Now one topic I want to cover is music because I know your preferences are quite different to the general population!. Tell us how your musical tastes have evolved over the years.

ZahurCC
Haha ok well I’d say I have a schizo type of music I like
one side is all gay and pop songs the other is more emo/rock light bands
gay is all westlife, steps, s club 7, boyzone, mcfly and alot of eurovision stuff, i LOVE eurovision then on the other side has MCR, linkin park (RIP Chester), evanescence, snow patrol, muse, within temptation stuff like that
i like some dance music tho id say that was more the gay side oh and love video game music
one of the bands i like that sounds very video game but isnt is a band called Dunderpatrullen they do some great songs

i liked mcfly enough to actually meet them in person…. well 2 of them at least didnt have time to get to the 2 i wasnt as fond of

Some dude from McFly and Chris!!

 

Sozzals
Tell us a little bit about the “gaymer” community you’re involved in.

ZahurCC
yeah i decided not that long ago that id join a gaming group for gay guys cause i wanted to have some gay company and be around other gay guys so i joined a Gaymer discord thats biased in london and they do all kinds of events on and off gaming, atm i havent really gotten into it too much so far, im pretty slow to sociallise with people, im terrible at it so ive just been joining for WoW (tho thats ended now) GW2 and now minecraft
im hoping that i can join them for some of the stuff out of gaming too tho my situation needs to change a bit first

Sozzals
How did you get the name Zahur?

ZahurCC
errr well it had a kind of progression really i liked a game called vandal hearts on ps1 and they had a mage called zohar on it and the spells in that game were pretty cool so i used that as my mages names but then i played DAoC for a few years and in one of there expansions they added artifacts, i bit like wows legion has now, one of them for mages was the crown of zahur and i was like “hmm that sounds better than zohar to me” so i went with that, the CC part is actually my initials so its partly that im sure not the only one that uses that name so this is for like making sure i still get my name and stuff

Sozzals
How did you get from “Zahur” to “Chris”? πŸ˜€

ZahurCC
i think it was because you couldnt say my name right? lol

Sozzals
Sounds like something I’d do. Would you describe yourself as a “tryhard” or a “filthy casual”?

ZahurCC
also i tend to use that name on mages and i dont think most of pyran saw me play a mage so Zahur never really stuck with people so they just went to my real name
some of my old guild mates call me zahur even older ones call me elvoh god no
i h8 the whole min max “meta” thing
as i said before im happy with being amazingly mediocre in games
im def a casual these days
too stressful to be a tryhard

Sozzals
Run us through an average day in the life of Chris.

ZahurCC
its not thrilling believe me
quite a few days is wake up, watch vods of streams, play some games, eat and drink then sleep
wednesdays and fridays have stuff i do in them
fridays is a gardening mindfullness time and wednesdays are therapy and art (model painting)
i make sure some exercise is in there tho i could do more

Sozzals
What kinda models are you painting? Like warhammer models and stuff like that?

ZahurCC
yeah i have loads of them unpainted and i find at this art group i can focus and get stuff done, i have been painting alot of tau models lately

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sozzals
Nice work man. I kinda half expected them to be elves though…. πŸ˜€

ZahurCC
i like gundams i have like 5 of them and watched the animes for them love me some mechs

Sozzals
If you could have any superpower. What would you choose and why?

ZahurCC
i feel like id be like boring and practial and say like flight or something, tho invisibility and sneaking into male showers/locker rooms would be fun
i also do like water and lightning spells in games so id love to be a proper mage
maybe i just wanna be storm from xmen lol

Sozzals
Lightening wizard, of course πŸ˜€
I heard you talking to Jim a little bit about astrology yesterday. Is that something you’re into?

ZahurCC
yeah i was really into it i used to be able to do birthcharts for people charting the planets locations were when you were born and the effects on their personality

Sozzals
What have you found out about yourself?

ZahurCC
that im definately a scorpio lol sex dark and loveable till crossed and then i brutally stab you…. maybe
i will drop someone if they mess me about tho
i just dont have the time for people like that

Sozzals
Sassy! What do you spend the most time thinking about?

ZahurCC
sadly naked men is way too high on that list lol but other than that games and creative projects are others

Sozzals
What personality trait do you value most and which do you dislike the most?

ZahurCC
i value kindness quite a bit i mean jirard and tom, like the 2 well known people i like, are kind hearted, carebears lol as for what i dislike is bitchyness which coming from a gay person is kinda weird but i hate the whole backhanded nastyness thats involved with it, i dated one guy that would not stop loudly voicing what he hated about the people walking by and i just wanted to die

Sozzals
What would be your spirit animal?

ZahurCC
wolf or raven
in gw2 lore wolf is all about groups and being part of a pack and raven values intelligence and learning

Sozzals
If you could have a video of any one event in your life, what event would you choose?

ZahurCC
the wales trip i did as part of a princes trust course
walking up mount snowden, kayaking, assault courses and trying rock climbing and screaming like a girl 3-4 feet off the ground and needing to be rescued

Sozzals
πŸ˜€ sounds like good times. If your life was a book, what would its title be?

ZahurCC
“why the hell dont u have a job yet?” i hear that alot
i wouldnt mind just a pop up book of men
totally not my life but i would like it to be

Sozzals
What kind of games can people in Pyran contact you about if they are LFM?

ZahurCC
ff14 im on odin server im on gw2 but noone plays that anymore err i have vermintide 1, division (which isnt a bad game btw) err warframe is pretty much upto date the new divinitys and diablos
oh and when stardew mulitplayer is done im def up for that

Sozzals
Who, in Pyran, would you like to see up next for a good old fashioned grilling?

ZahurCC
the ones im interested in are probably the some of the hardest to get
pidge and kev come to mind
and also i def wanna hear about farske

Sozzals
Thank you for agreeing to the grilling yourself! Hopefully it wasn’t stressful for you…

ZahurCC
haha no its been fun

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